pleure

completely i could not speak out a word from my mouth
feeling so nervous when her voice buzz buzz buzz over the phone
i dare not to answer and the one and only feeling deep in my heart is

shaky

almost i cry
yet before tears drop down i ran over to the washroom
"but why are you so scared?"

seems i never make correct judgements
never say right things in appropriate wordings when facing her
wholly i doubt myself

likewise seems i never know if she's trapping me
never know how i can think in her way

after all i know i could not trust her and hers
like i did at the beginning
like i always do to everyone

and yet is the saddest thing which makes my heart cry

je me sens si faible quand je pleure